Passion

Lately I have been reading a lot of books and articles about "finding your passion".  I am looking to change careers, and have struggled to figure out what it is I really want to do.  For someone like me who has been doing one thing for over twenty years, and with no other marketable skills or backup to fall on, looking ahead down the path has been daunting.  I've been sitting down and trying to figure out what it is I can do that I can both enjoy and make a living from. And it's both been difficult and very easy.

I read one fantastic (and very blunt) article about this idea of finding your passion.  In a nutshell, the author claims that we already know it, but are choosing to ignore it.  What do we spend our free time talking about? What dominates our web browsing?  If we have to "find" our passion, then we aren't passionate about it in the first place. Our passions are ingrained in us already, but like the fish who swims in water all day and doesn't understand the idea of water being wet, we are most likely already wrapped up in our passion and don't even know it. I also recall reading something long ago that suggested we look at what we spend our disposable money on - that's another key to understanding where our passions lie. 

So in looking at my life with an objective eye, I can see already the things I enjoy - writing, recovery, computers, cooking (at home), organizing things, podcasting, communicating.  It's all there.  I couldn't see this because I was too focused on trying to find my passion with a capital "P".  I thought it was some hidden treasure.  Perhaps I'm an elite level 5-pin bowler and don't even know it.  Maybe I'm some savant-like accountant, and I just need to start taking a night class to see that.  But it doesn't work like that.  What you're passionate about is already there. It may be right in front of your face, but ignored.  

The biggest hurdle for me in this is trying to envision making a living from this all.  "Writers don't make much money," I state as fact.  I have spoken to some writers and they have said the same.  Most of them have traditional jobs on the side to pay the bills.  Do I want to do that? Aren't I already leaving a "regular" job?  But there is one thing that my wife, who has actually co-written a program about turning ideas into income, tells me - don't worry about the "how" - just forge ahead.  Focus on the process.  Keep your eye on the bigger picture.  The money will come.  It's uncharted waters for me, but others have done it.  It's not an easy manner of thinking when you're used to doing things in a linear, traditional way.

So I have dropped the idea of the "how" and am just following the path in front of me.  It's frightening at times, but I have been meditating and praying on this, and the Universe keeps directing me in this direction.  Even last night I asked the Powers That Be if I will make some money off these new ventures.  "Some, but there will be something else that will help."  I don't know what that means, but it's clear that things will crop up.  As long as I keep myself open to all possibilities, things will come.  Law of Attraction type deals. 

To step back at this point would be foolish.  I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Clichéd I know, but that's where I'm at.  It's exciting and confounding at the same time. The most important part in this endeavour is taking action. All the dreaming and plotting in the world won't put me one inch closer to where I want to be.  It's all about action, and that's what I have been doing.  It's work.  That's the point.  Or else it's just idle contemplating.